After tonight

So… we spoke for the first time in a while… i didnt know how to react but i stayed calm pretty well… except after seeing that video today… came close to a breakdown there lol! Anyways… i dont feel so bad… its not the same now i feel it… even tho old habits wanna fight out… i’m trying. I see this as being.. a chance to something… i know now isnt the time yet… but i wish you could open up to me too… i dont know if you’ll ever see this … if you do “Heyyyyyy how you doinnn?” 😂 i just… seeing how you are right now.. i dont know how to react.. writing it down might help but im just so mindblown… u want MY attention… without admiting it… just the same that i didnt say i wanted to stay and i almooooosst cancelled my friends.. but i didnt want you to tell me i was dumb for staying or anything, so i left. Didnt listen to feeling… but… i came back earlier for a reason… and i was happy to see you happy to see me. I dont know what else to say other than… im glad you found a way to show me how you feel… opening up this way… on here… its a great idea… a great beginning… its a good way of me getting to know you.. and how u feel… but i wont lie about how much i miss you… and seeing you tonight made me stand up again.. especially after everything you’ve said to me.. how mad you’ve gotten because you love me so much… and how … how i just.. LOVE YOU! Its like i can’t say it enough can i ugh. I won’t say more for tonight. I just hope you sleep well, and i hope u keep posting… you are and always will be.. my little racoon❤️