Another day, another challenge

Maybe you’re still reading this, maybe you only read it once… if you’re still reading, well hey:) i hope you’re doing okay! alright well … where to start.. we just hung up from facetime, you wanted to listen to music so yeah.. but you knew something was up with me, why didnt you say anything..? if you wanna know, ill write it right here: i miss you more than anything. I’m trying my best to hide how i feel but still showing im crushing on you.. bringing you a gift, flirting on call… you know small subtle stuff… as if we just started talking to each other and like.. took our time in a way like i said on call, now i know i totally know thats not what this is… its similar but its not that, its basically… just us talking… maybe slowly becoming friends or something i dont know what it is… we havent really talked much about it but im always super scared to ask stuff because im so scared of driving you away again and never seeing you… i dont want to lose you a second time… this is already great and you’re being such a good influence to me… i mean shit you’re getting me to relax on smoking and teaching me how to control it like you’re there for me… someone is actually helping me through this and isnt giving up on me even when i do fuck shit up… and flirting like we’re doing.. knowing how you feel inside it kind of makes me feel better… and encourages me to only post how i really feel around here… dont take it the wrong way im not jumping to conclusions or anything. I’m just happy you actually wanna spend time with me and talk and goof around on facetime. i think its pretty cool, plus considering quarantine is coming i think its awesome, ill have a quarantine buddy this time, even tho its on facetime ! anyways i wont write much more its already long enough. Just know that you’re just really a great person who managed to actually steal my heart… i hate you and you’re super annoying<3 sweet dreams! good night