I figured out some shit that i wanna do, how i want to make myself better, had a long night yesterday and i think i’m finally on the right path… thing is i dont know how much time i have left its completely random, my coughing got bad .. anyways, besides that um.. i’ve been doing better.. u were on my mind all day yesterday.. and i still miss you! But damn… its like.. i’ve been doing so much for myself and getting to know myself again and all.. like its going really good ! I just wish i could tell you everything… which leads me to my next idea, i love wrtting… but when i started college i was into making and editing vids… so i figured i coild the same.. this is ur thing.. maybe my thing could be short entertainment and vlog type vids, and i’m sure it could be cool for u to watch! I would talk about my dad the same way and what not, all i have to do is send the links ! Idk if i’ll do it tho.. i just thought about that yesterday. Je t’aime mon amour… je vais toujours toujours taimer… tu vois jai commencer a parler avec du nouveau monde un peu… mais ya pas une personne qui lsait pas que jten amour akt avec toi😂 i wont date ever again. Not for a long time.. because after i’m done handling me, and taking care of me and making myself who i want to be, i’m coming back you. I’ve given up on too much in my life. You know a lot about me, more than anyone.. and we have our connection… i dont want to lose that ok? We needed space, fine, but when all this is over and i’m myself again … i want you Amelia. And i’ll do anything i can to try and get u back… because i want no one but you. And its gonna be like that for a long long long time… i cant move on, i accepted it🤷🏻♂️you really are the love of my life. BUT, here’s what i did learn: i need to focus on me and treat myself the same way i treated u, once i can do that, we’re good ! Anyways… theres still so much i wanna say to you but i’m short on time today, i have lots to do… so if theres anything leave a comment or smt, i tried not to make this too long.. but i really do miss you… see its been a week now we havent spoke irl.. except a coiple days ago… and … its hurting more and more everyday… but im able to control it better… stay safe, i love you, you’re the best and i hope dave’s taking care of u. Dont be stupid. (Also, i’ve been drug free for a solid week now, except the occasion of weed, like last night i smoked a bit, but not enough to fuck me up right? Responsible☺️) je taime.
-B
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